February 2006

Saturday, February 25, 2006

a not so secret thought
whoa. God, does the craziest things sometimes. tonight it was date night with dan and, holy smokes, quite the date it turned out to be. we bundled up and headed out for an "adventure". we walked through town and headed out 42 until we came across and empty lot. we went through the field and then through some woods until we climbed down between some rock faces near the stream. dan pulled out a blanket and we bundled up and watched the stars blink through the black, naked branches of the trees. we talked, just talked and talked and let the silence do some more talking for us. God stuff, life, everything, us. the way it always is.at one point i told him that i really liked me. he returned the comment and then the silence fell heavy with a phrase neither of us had the courage to say. dan said he wanted to say more but felt it might be best to wait and i agreed.we got up and walked back through the trees until we stepped out into the edge of the field where the sky seemed to rip open thousand more stars, just for us. we stood there speachless, just marveling at God. and then dan said. "if i love you, i might as well say it....Rebekah Nettekoven I love you.""i love you dan tello.""is it alright if i kiss you?""yes" it was just a whisper as our lips met underneath the billion stars and their lights and under the cold night expance and under God.the funny thing was the whole "i love you" phrase was one of the most rational, reasoned thougths i've ever had. in fact that's what i referenced in the last post. i'm not sure why, but i knew, without the fuzziness, b/c i never trust an emotional buzz, that this was it. it was okay to say it and i really really meant it. i meant it with all that i am now and all that i will become in the future. i know it's there. so crazy. coming from me, the most independent of people. this was the last place i saw myself.regardless that adventure will last in my head forever. and ever. wow. i love dan tello. and dan tello loves me.
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

a not joke
i'm not even kidding when i say i like dan, a lot.i won't say the completely rational thought that crossed my head the other day. it's a secret for in my head.
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Monday, February 20, 2006

journal
it's lost! where could it be??
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Saturday, February 18, 2006

i really like my boyfriend, a lot!last night we talked the whole way to xenia about his sister and all her problems that she's dealing with right now and then we bought stuff to make banana splits. we rented the motorcyle diares for only 53 cents and came back and ate while we watched the movie. it was so nice to be in his arms while we talked afterwards and realize that for both of us this is the first time everything has made sense at all the levels. friendship, interests, music and movie preferences, God stuff. it's so neat. the other day we walked in the rain, and stood in the masonic lodge parking lot as we talked about God and let our selves get soaking wet. that is what life should be, and for right now, it is.
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

remember when....
...i only used this for all the crappy stuff, the stupid mistakes and anger issues.well today i use it to smile on the world, smile at God and smile at the wonderful boy he's put at my side. Dan is amazingly caring, honest, real, ARTISTIC!, godly, funny, skinny and HOT!we had a wonderful valentine's day date. fish and chips with a pint to wash it all down. tasty and fun. i honestly feel a little freaked out by the title, i'm not sure i want to be "taken" but i do not feel trapped. it will just take some getting used to b/c this kid is seriously from God. i couldn't have made it happen if i wanted to.i like dan tello. and you're not allowed to!
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

new title
i am a girlfriend of dan tello!!!!!!
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Thursday, February 09, 2006

prayer
saturday night dan tello told me that he liked me and asked me on a date. he now seems to be my "not" boyfriend. esentially we will hold hands, hang out at somepoint everyday but we aren't "offically" dating yet.last night i was talking to tori online and she was freaking out and i was getting upset and angry and dan just stopped me at one point and asked if i wanted to pray about it. it was just like when dad prays with me on stuff that i don't know what's happening. it was so cool. i wanted to cry, to curl up in his arms, but he just rubbed my back and i knew he was praying, both of us helpless to do anything but that.it was the first time a guy has stopped long enough to pray with me. earl would never have done that, i doubt kyle would. it was huge.i would be stupid to let go.
posted by bekah @ 8:13 AM 0 comments