October 2004

Sunday, October 31, 2004

poetry
in not for
give in, keep movingno standing allowed.no waiting in queue.if this is lifeit is meant to be lived.where tomorrow stopped.the moments are frozen,melting, dripping, plunkingagainst my face.i have today.iced droplets sting,take on some warmth.wait under thisunfriendly, melting massi would drown. ground moves, feet follow,body forward, hands straining.a brush, a prick, a stab, a scream.velocity increases, pain intense.this is living.no more waiting.
posted by bekah @ 11:55 AM 0 comments

Thursday, October 28, 2004

why? when?
he's spending the whole weekend with his best friend....she's in love with him. is this jealousy or concern? she's wonderful, i know she is. i want to meet her becasue i believe we'd be friends and we have a lot in common. we both see his lopsided smile, the way his eyes swim with green and seem to find our eyes at the perfect moment. we both see a burning passion inside of him for all that is pure, truthful and lovely. we see Christ in him. we see a man who can love beyond all others, skinny, with floppy hair and the best arms to hug us with. we find art. he creates music that pierces through every bone in our bodies and lodges itself in our souls. we both see our friend, she sees the man she loves, i see the man my heart has grown fonder of.he makes us alive.why now? when will it end?the pain in the process is making beauty out of nothing, God crafting his creatures into his will, forcing all three of us to depend solely on the love and soverignty of our holy God.
posted by bekah @ 10:09 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

anger
when will DR leave me alone? it's been nearly a year. move on with life. and please, leave my friends alone. there's another, there were others after you. never during, never even thoughts of others while i was with you. just frustration and questions, i doubted and i tried hard, i pretended that everything was okay in hopes that something would make sense. the problem wasn't fixed. it was left to fend for itself. and so things fall apart. i'm happy. i'm living my life discovering things, people, places. i'm okay with waiting this time. with my best friends i don't need anything else. God sustains, God blesses. He is to whom i cling and praise Him for the friend he has given to me.
posted by bekah @ 9:51 AM 0 comments

Sunday, October 24, 2004

question
does anyone know this exists?i saw a flaming shooting start tonight. i was with a boy. we are friends, he's my best boy (space) friend here at school. he's wonderful. Thank you God for Pierce.
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004

a boy...
pierce kissed me and we held hands. it was the most beautifully, innocently pure kiss i have ever received. he's my friend and i have affections for him. he is kind and beautiful and makes me laugh. he is a man of passions and of God. i am thankful he is in my life.
posted by bekah @ 9:23 PM 0 comments